need motivation

  So after gaining weight 2 weeks ago, I lost it back last week. I am afraid to see what my weight will be on sunday, I have not been very good this week, not only have I not worked out one time, Ive also been eating out a lot this week think the stress and loneliness of the holidays got to me.
  But after talking to Kyle today and making plans for a second honeymoon next summer while we are at home, makes me want to get back on track, won't be easy with family coming and going over the next few weeks but I plan to try.
  I want to be able to buy new clothes before we go on this trip, new date night clothes for a nice dinner out with him would be awesome. I am not so worried about hitting my goal weight of 120 pounds, which i still have 37 pounds to lose to hit that. I am focusing more on being comfortable with the way I look instead, so I can go out and have fun with him and not be so self conscious.

  So as of right now I would like to be at, at least 135 when he comes home, so only 15 pounds heavier than my current goal weight and only means I would need to lose 22 pounds to get there. And thats only if I havent lost or gained weight this week.  Think I need to do a fast for a week or something, that would help me get back on track, or just some major working out.

Bad week!!!

My week was going great I had reached 157 and then I started eating terribly and not working out at all. I have now officially had my first gain. I'm now 159 which means I gained 2.8 pounds and I'm back above my first goal that I was so excited to reach.

This week I will be eating better starting today And will start my workout back up after I put the kids to bed.

I need to not let my emotions get the best of me since I'm a bad emotional eater.

Goal!!!!!

Ok well not my ultimate goal, but I hit my first goal!!!!  Officially 158 pounds!!!

SW: 174.6
CW: 158
GW: 120
PL: 16
PTG: 38


I am very excited with the progress I have made so far. In only a months time I have lost 16 pounds, if I keep up at this pace I will reach my end goal by February. I set my end date for the last day of April but would love to hit it that early so I can spend the rest of this deployment getting super toned.

And then it gives me plenty of time to get rid of all my fat clothes and buy an all new wardrobe before my husband comes home. I want to be able to show myself off every single day for him, nice clothes, makeup and hair fixed every single day :)

I know he could care less if I do that, he loves me even if my hair is in a messy bun, wearing sweats and no make-up but I used to love dressing up and want to be that way again.

Reaching my first goal has definitely put a boost in my confidence, now I know I can reach my goal without any help from anyone else. I feel prettier and overall better about myself, which is making me want to be better in other parts of my life. I plan to be a completely different and better person by the time he gets home.

Progress

SW: 174
GW: 120
CW: 159

I have currently lost a total of 15 pounds!!! I still have a long way to go, 39 pounds to be exact. But I know I can do it i have already made so much progress and can see the difference in just the last few weeks. I feel better not eating all the junk I would normally be eating and not drinking pop all the time, my go to drink is always water. I can see how much smaller my face is and with taking update photos I am able to see a full body difference that otherwise I wouldn't see.

Weekly weigh-in

So on Sundays i do my weight check. My previous posting i hadn't weighed since last sunday and i said it was 166, I'm glad to say that is incorrect.



SW:174
GW:120
CW:162.4
Pounds lost so far: 12
Pounds left to lose: 42



I have small goals for myself and when i reach those goals i get a prize.

 1st goal: 158  Prize: new makeup
2nd goal: 147  Prize: taylor swift shoes
3rd goal: 137  Prize: new high heels
4th goal: 128  Prize: VS l
5th goal: 120  Prize: new wardrobe!!


I only have 4 pounds to my first goal looks like by next week i could be buying myself some new makeup :)


Tomorrow during nap time i will be starting my insanity back up. Hopefully i don't die.

Slow progress

My progress has been extremely slow coming, while I am very happy with the little progress I have made. It is kind of depressing to think of how far I still have to go.  I am pretty much willing to do anything at this point to lose the weight. I am tired of my clothes not fitting me right and the longer it takes to move down a pant size the worse I seem to feel.

SW: 174
GW: 120
CW: 166 (i assume haven't weighed since sunday)
Pounds lost so far: 8.5
Pounds to 1st goal: 8
Pounds left to lose for GW: 46



I will be so excited when the day comes that I fit into my size 12 jeans, even though that isn't much of an achievement since I am currently in a size 14. I know that I will feel so much better about myself, because I will be able to tell that all of my efforts have made a difference.


I am on day 12 of my squat challenge. And I plan to start doing zumba on the xbox, did a few minutes of it before my daughter woke up from her nap, and it felt more like a workout than anything else I have done lately.

Would like to start going to the gym soon as well, I really want to start using the treadmill.

30 day squat challenge….woo hoo!!!

Day 1 of my 30 day squat challenge complete, ready for tomorrow to start day two. Also got up at 630 and got on the tread climber and walked for a mile and a half with a friend after dropping our oldest kids off at school.  Im sure i will be in tons of pain tomorrow, but i will NOT let that stop me from reaching my goals!!

My Inspiration

Instead of pictures of super skinny models to inspire myself I am using old pictures of myself. It makes my goal seem more realistic since this is how I used to look.
I don't want to be as small (108) as i was in these pictures, but its still a more realistic goal of how i should look.

Progress Update

SW: 174
GW: 120
CW: 167
Pounds lost so far: 7


I have finally let myself relax a little and not stress out so much about every little thing. It has definitely helped me lose some weight and i am no longer craving the sweets and pop like i was before.

I have my small goals that i want to reach at different times and to motivate myself i am allowed a prize when i reach that goal.  My first is new makeup, any type and brand that i want. I am only 9 pounds away from that goal.  Seeing that number get closer is really helping to motivate me and lift my spirits knowing that i can do this and i have only been holding myself back this whole time.

I do have a goal for my ending weight but my true goal at the end is having my husband home from deployment and getting to see the woman he fell in love with 6 years ago.

Cheating

My plan was to cheat my way into losing weight faster. I wanted to take diet pills to get there quicker, tried to find a clinic around here that sells the pills I want, and they wanted a lot of money. So I thought someone from back home could help me out and get them for me, no one could or would. I'm starting to think God has other plans for me and wants me to figure out how to do this on my own.  

New Start

So tomorrow will be day 1 of my new diet.  I have nothing around to distract me, so it should be a lot easier.  I will be eating a low calorie diet and working out on the elliptical and doing insanity.

Current stats:
SW:174
CW:170
GW:120 would be ok with 125-130
WTG:50
CZ:14
GZ:4-5

Pounds lost so far: 4

My plan is to reach at least a goal of 135 by the time my husband comes home at the end of April.

Skinny wraps

So got my skinny wraps in, so that means tomorrow I need to drink nothing but water and I need to make a trip to a health foods store for the rest of the ingredients I need to start the lemonade diet. Which means 10 days drinking only the lemon water mixture and no food. And while I'm doing that ill be wrapping, the diet alone is supposed to help detox and lose around 10-15 ) pounds in the 10 day period. I'm hoping to lose at least 10, I really want to fit in my size 10 jeans before going home for 2 months. And while at home I plan to do the lemonade diet at least twice. 

Will weigh on the day I start the lemonade diet and wraps ill also post my measurements. 

Very unhappy

So I got on the scale this morning after not following my diet for the last week and I gained 3 pounds :(
Current weight: 164

New diet I'm trying is the water diet,  not healthy for me at all but should help me drop at least 10-15 lbs by the time I'm done. 

Starting from Scratch

OK so its been a very long time since I last posted. I was only 23 pounds from my goal on my last post. I have since had a second child, a little boy and now I have 41 pounds until I reach my goal of 120 pounds.

Have a wedding to go to in May, so I am hoping to lose at least 10 pounds by then. Would love to lose 20 but I'm aiming for 10.

After having another baby it is very hard to get back into the habit of eating healthy and working out. Every time I start eating better I get tempted and cant seem to resist. And I was doing great starting insanity and then my mom came to visit and I was distracted and didn't work out.

Wish the movers hadn't lost my treadmill, I would love to be able to use it everyday like I was before.  Thinking of asking the hubby to buy me a new one, I really loved using my treadmill.