need motivation

  So after gaining weight 2 weeks ago, I lost it back last week. I am afraid to see what my weight will be on sunday, I have not been very good this week, not only have I not worked out one time, Ive also been eating out a lot this week think the stress and loneliness of the holidays got to me.
  But after talking to Kyle today and making plans for a second honeymoon next summer while we are at home, makes me want to get back on track, won't be easy with family coming and going over the next few weeks but I plan to try.
  I want to be able to buy new clothes before we go on this trip, new date night clothes for a nice dinner out with him would be awesome. I am not so worried about hitting my goal weight of 120 pounds, which i still have 37 pounds to lose to hit that. I am focusing more on being comfortable with the way I look instead, so I can go out and have fun with him and not be so self conscious.

  So as of right now I would like to be at, at least 135 when he comes home, so only 15 pounds heavier than my current goal weight and only means I would need to lose 22 pounds to get there. And thats only if I havent lost or gained weight this week.  Think I need to do a fast for a week or something, that would help me get back on track, or just some major working out.

Bad week!!!

My week was going great I had reached 157 and then I started eating terribly and not working out at all. I have now officially had my first gain. I'm now 159 which means I gained 2.8 pounds and I'm back above my first goal that I was so excited to reach.

This week I will be eating better starting today And will start my workout back up after I put the kids to bed.

I need to not let my emotions get the best of me since I'm a bad emotional eater.